Waiting is hard. Whether you're waiting for something to start or end, test results, an important phone call or an answer from God, waiting.is.hard.
I feel like we have been in a waiting phase for the better part of 4 years. But this is a different kind of waiting.
When we were waiting to be matched with Jenna Grace, we were just waiting for that magical day to happen. To see a sweet face, read a file and to say yes.
This time around, we have already seen that sweet face. We picked her. Well, God picked her and used us to say yes. Truth is, He has picked all the orphans, He is just waiting for those families to say "yes".
We have her picture on our phones but more importantly she is already in our hearts.
However, her file is what is lagging. We are waiting for that file.
What normally happens is this: a child is abandoned and the orphanage in that province immediately begins to put their file together (you know, height, weight, shot records, foods they eat etc)so they can be put out on a list so their future family can find them. Well, thats the gist of it.
That is not what has happened here. Our girl, for some reason, unbeknownst to us has never had a file put together for adoption. Somehow all along the way, she has fallen through every crack. Until now.
And so this waiting feels so different. We don't know how tall she is, how much she weighs, her likes and dislikes. We don't know what she weighed when she was born or how many surgeries she has had to correct her cleft lip/palate. We know NOTHING, and to be honest, its driving us crazy. The paperwork, albeit, frustrating is coming together and we aren't worried about the money because that will happen right on time but waiting on this file is like nail biting waiting.
But, those who wait or hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will rise up with wings like eagles, they will walk and not grow weary, they will run and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31
Praise. I am smiling even just typing this scripture. There is peace, and there is hope as we wait on the Lord. As we trust in His timing. And so, we wait. We wait expectantly knowing His ways are higher than our ways. And we hold onto the joy that will also strengthen us for today and the days ahead as press on through this journey of adoption and life.
There is something about knowing you are in God's will that makes things so much easier...even the most difficult situations.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, sweet friend! All in God's timing. I know the waiting is. so. hard. But it's so worth it, as you know! Focus on your family today. You'll miss them later, so take advantage of the time you have today. Praying for you!
ReplyDelete~Brittany